The story begins with “Man in room”. The Man, or Gordon, who I personally call him, appears for the first time. Gordon is the only one in this room, Gordon is the only one who’s ever been in this room, Gordon knows nothing other than this room, but that will change. Gordon is given the appearance of a man in a suit, this man is never left without a grin. To characterize Gordon with one personality trait, it is a workhorse. He knows nothing other than the work, and the work alone. Gordon is meant to personify the extreme viciousness of oneself and who we can become given improper love, affection or support. Gordon isolates himself from the whole world. His world is the room in his life is the work there no things outside of that.
Within the timeline of this narrative, “Man in Chair” is the next scene to occur. At this time Gordon is still in the room, but there is an eerie feeling that the room is changing, and Gordon too is changing with the room. From his body language, there’s a feeling of something insightful occurring or some sort of epiphany.
“Honest and Cruel” occurs moments after “man in chair”, Gordon appears more brolic with a more visceral look. it seems as though Gordon’s insights have manifested externally on his own appearance. when we first see Gordon in men in room, he appears small, and skittish. Gordon’s disposition has now changed, looking large and muscular while also having some sort of newfound confidence from his insights.
“Hollow Train” shows us Gordon exiting the room. We see more colors in this piece than we see in any in the series to shine light on the idea of motion and emotional viciousness that’s coming out of this scene. additionally, there stylistic changes to evoke some sort of motion rather than a stagnant character. There are poems written all over this piece. Most importantly, there is a poem hidden, almost as if it was destroyed to make this piece. Most of us want to be held by a stranger that doesn’t feel like one. To the observer, it should be uncertain where Gordon is going. The observer should only know that the Epiphany in the room brought Gordon to where he is in the scene.
“Again”, introduces us to our second character, “big blue”. This scene occurs while Gordon is in route. in this scene Big blue is stagnant, not waiting, but stagnant. Big blue is the polar opposite of Gordon. He gives flowers to those who don’t deserve them, and has none left for himself each day. Big Blue lets individuals take advantage of him, giving his all, but never getting anything reciprocated. Big blue looks so silly but also so sad, he wears clothes of a jester, along with a glass bottle with dead flowers on his head. He is always depicted with flowers in his hands ready to give to someone who doesn’t deserve them. Big blue is every insecurity I’ve ever had. I thought he was alone until he wasn’t. Big Blue is a feeling, he’s not a person, he’s not a thing, he’s not a character. He is the feeling of being less than, but still giving your all to someone else. “Again” depicts big blue in his natural state, forgotten about, unreciprocated and lost. The scene, like many others I created are to make you feel uncomfortable as you are within the same narrative, in their world. You’re sharing these stories with these characters, You are the both antagonist and protagonist in this story. Big blue looks towards your direction asking you: Why have you done this to me again? Why are you treating me this way again? Why have you made me feel this way again? Am i not worthy?
“Clash of Titans” is the climax of this work. Though it is not depicted on scene, This is a clash between Gordon and big blue. Gordon’s Epiphany in the room was to destroy big blue. When I originally created this piece I thought this was the last one in the series, I was a bit ignorant to my own self when thinking this. gordon’s destruction of big blue was just part of the natural order of things. I view these two characters as coexisting in a pantheon. though, I do not know the other characters that play a role in this pantheon yet, I know that these two characters coexist, and can only exist symbiotically. while making this work, I was greatly interested in Hinduism and exploring different ideas within Hinduism. I describe my work as a process of both creation and destruction, and neither can exist without the other. I view Gordon as Vishnu, the destroyer. I look at big blue as Shiva, the preserver. If big blue was destroyed after the scene, Gordon would be left alone to continue his rampage in destroying everything without anyone to create anything else for Gordon to destroy. It is an ecosystem driven by the beautiful dance of death. Sometimes I feel like Gordon, I need to destroy all of my insecurities and power through just to get my work done, but sometimes I feel like big blue. It just depends on the day.
“Legion” depicts, a new scene, showing you the vast extent of big blue and his reach. There is an army of them. He is never alone. He travels in packs just as our insecurities do. The scene is meant to show that growth and healing will not happen on one day, there will always be adversity, and you will always have to except that adversity some days and some moments you will have to become Gordon, but there are other times, where it’s acceptable to be big blue.
